I have to admit that I wasn't entirely sure I was going to share that post until I actually pressed the 'publish' button. Because, what if you'd think I were some whiny brat and I should just get over it. Clearly I have issues. ;-)
Of course, I will 'get over' it. But it's not something you can just snap out of. Atleast not in my experience. It's a process. And it helps big time to actually put it into words and share it with others.
I'm not sure what the next 'step' will be, but having looked the thing in the eye it is a lot easier to move forward, to gently nudge myself in a different direction. I almost wrote 'in the right direction' but what would that even mean when I don't know where I'm going? ;-)
Part of me is still kinda terrified that things aren't going as I'd like. But the other part of me is pretty excited that I have this period to just play and do things I've been wanting to try. Even if they are just little things. And I think that excitement is key to move forward.
I tend to feel like I only want to show things that are finished, but on the other hand I really enjoy seeing other people's works in progress and hearing their thoughts on the process. So there may be some more WIPs here on the blog from now on. Less pressure to finish things. And a big permission to do many things just because I want to. :-)
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